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I wrote down some lyrics the other day for a song I have been working on. I imagined singing it in my head with a beautiful voice. Then a few days later when I went to visit my friend she came across my notebook and read the lyrics and immediately started to quietly sing the lyrics. It was a moment I won’t ever forget. I almost started to get tears in my eyes. And then I asked her if she could sing it along with the song I wrote it for. After that I lost it.
I’ve been going to some very dark places of my body and soul this year. Places that I thought I would never ever revisit… But now it’s different. Instead of fighting against it and running away I’m welcoming it with open arms. And yes it’s put me in strange positions and disfigured locations. I’ve left a lot of things about me behind and let go of many things I’ve loved just so I can focus on these episodes. People say that those who are weak are consumed by emotions. But in reality that is the essence of living. It gives you the strength to believe and the energy to learn about the inner depths of your vibrating soul. To love and feel for other things around you. Feel the vibrations, to feel the Earth slowly rotate. I don’t know how long this will last. I don’t know if I will ever return. Maybe that is why I miss a lot of things. Maybe because I chose to embrace it. These things/feelings is all I have. I feel like it’s all I carry that holds the truth about who I am. They are sacred to me and no one will ever know it. Part of me feels sad mostly because I won’t ever share it with someone. My music has revealed itself to me. I realize now for the first time in a long time I can finally hear what my soul sounds like, and its sad and beautiful.
Ashleigh Brilliant (via newblog-oldurl)