I wanna move to LA already fuck my home town and every single fucking person here. My people are living far away and motivating me every single day to be a better person that’s where I wanna be. Around those vibes all the time.
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New Years Run 2018 🎉 skrillex.com/tour 🔥
Dec 28 - Vancouver, BC @ Contact Winter Music Festival
Dec 30 - Denver, CO @ Decadence CO
Dec 30 - Chandler, AZ @ Decadence AZ
Dec 31 - Minneapolis, MN @ Snowta Fest
You have been my inspiration for as long as I can remember. I’m happy you are coming back to the music world. I can’t wait to be inspired by you again as always. Without you none of my music would have been possible. I would have never been driven to venture out of my comfort zone and create something VERY different and shift my direction of my music. I am proud of where my music is now cause of you!
(Source: skrillex)
I refuse to chase after anybody who makes me feel like I have to beg for their attention. If I’m into you I’m gonna show it but if you aren’t showing it back then I’ll eventually give up and move the hell on and never look back.
(via adrienicolee)
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I don’t think I have ever felt so much for one individual that does not reciprocate the same emotions back. This is so frustrating. Never in my life did I ever think to be put in this situation. I thought I was stronger than this. Why do I constantly hold onto this shit. Knowing myself I would have tossed it all away a long time ago but what makes me want to fucking stick around? I just find it easier loosing hope and just giving up. I keep dreaming about it all the time. This town is poison and I need to move away. I need to begin again. Start a new path just me myself and I. Solitude has always been my greatest and most loving dear friend to me. And I want to be able to get back to myself again. Constantly apologizing for stupid emotions that I know shouldn’t have happened. It sucks how after all these years I am more lost than ever. I’m sorry to my younger self for not saving us. I miss what we used to be. I miss just us doing whatever the fuck we were passionate about no holding back. I need myself again.
The next person I fall in love with, I want them to be in love with themselves tremendously first.
Why does all of this shit have to revolve around you. Why can’t I feel normal again. I just don’t wanna be around you anymore. All this shit is like a drug and it’s fucking changing me into something I shouldn’t be anymore. When did I become the person to let my anger and saddness out on some random stranger. To literally use people everytime I feel sad to be intimate and then leave them. Who am I even becoming anymore. I scare myself every single time and I know I shouldn’t be like this anymore. I don’t know who to talk to. I wanted you to be that person I wanted you to be the one. But I know you are not supposed to be. And I hate the fact that I keep wishing you were. I don’t wanna be the one to force change on you. I don’t want to have to feel like I need to constantly impress you and get your attention. I won’t do that anymore. I wanna break you like you have broken me. You she’d tears but only because you feel for yourself. You do these things to yourself. I don’t want to see you do that anymore. I don’t want to have to feel for you anymore. I wanna get over these stupid worthless emotions. I never fucking asked for this shit cause I knew deep down this would happened to me. I know I wasn’t ready and haven’t been and don’t know when I will ever be. Maybe I am just not met to be around anymore. I wanna slowly move on to the next point in time. I wanna disappear. Maybe then I can find the person I once was again. Am I really meant to always feel and be alone. What am I supposed to do?
“It’s easy to lose yourself in the idea of a person and be blinded to their reality.”— Jay Kristoff (via purplebuddhaquotes)
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“You only have so much emotional energy each day. Don’t fight battles that don’t matter.”— (via purplebuddhaquotes)
(Source: purplebuddhaquotes, via enlas-nubes)
(Source: estrellas-sin-color, via enlas-nubes)
Found my dark place again. Filled with ideas and creativity.
I want you to hurt the way that I fucking hurt. I want you to fall deeply mad in love with me so you know how it fucking feels. I want you to feel hepless the way I do. This is why I am trying right now. I’m doing all these things in hopes that you will fall in love so I can leave you after that. Why? So you can know how I felt. So you can feel what it is to feel and fall into this dark void. At this point I am over it. Why because I thought you would have changed having lost me once and reconciling after. I saw so much potential in you and yet you didn’t see it yourself. I hope one day you come around. But one thing is for sure is that I won’t again. I’m falling back into the person I was before. The person that only cared about himself. The person that started to do creative things and people started to notice. I can’t cry anymore. It just won’t come out anymore. I’m turning into this un emotional being. I feel so much yet my mind puts it all away. This shit is hard. I’m not even sad for them anymore. I’m now sad for myself for letting it happen. Like all I’m caring about now is for myself. Like owe myself an apology. We agreed to leave this back last year. And here we are two months in again. Need to leave it all behind. Need to do things for myself. More self love. Self care.
Do I really deserve this?